nobody's a superman
this is just so sad. i used to give my dad greeting cards on father's day saying he's my superhero. it's painful to grow up and realize how little power they have in their own lives let alone their children's. There was no reason for me to watch fictional heroes back then when for every problem i had, i would just ask dad. But i started watching those films recently and they are all real nice now that they are the only one to exist(fictional).
just the same old question but- how much of our life is free will and how much is just the byproduct of butterfly effect?
i have been putting everyone away for a few months. I don't feel good doing that but i don't seem to be able spend some time with them cheerily. It feels as if i am bleeding unto the bones. Who are these strangers in my family?
The scalding sun has sucked up my soul. I don't seem to have energy to even walk. Every work i do requires tremendous energy now. the diagnostics, the doctors none of it is helping.